Feng Shui Part 2

So I realized that I never did a part two to that first post. Lame.
This is what happened. I did a paper and presentation on Feng Shui, and had the great idea to feng shui my room at college. Then I actually did research, and found out that what I thought was feng shui had nothing to do with real feng shui. It is just the westernized, commercialized version. So I didn't feng shui my room, although it probably would have made it look nicer. If you ever want to hear all about the roots of feng shui in China thousands of years ago, I'll tell you all about it. But if you don't care, I'm sorry I never was cool enough to actually do it and post about it.
On a happier note, I now I have a camera! So I will hopefully my posts will start looking more interesting (as I have had family members nagging me to do). That depends on me doing something interesting with my life, which isn't likely. We'll see what I can do.

Mirror

Today I looked into the mirror, and saw a little girl. She was very inexperienced, and completely oblivious to some important things. I was really surprised. For some reason I had been expecting to see a woman, but no, she was a little girl. She had spunk and potential, but she just wasn't there yet. Why was this so surprising? I should have known all along that she was still a kid, really. It takes a lot more than a couple years at college to turn a girl into a woman.
At first it bothered me. What was wrong? Why was she so young? But then I realized that really, she was doing the best she could with what she knew, just like everyone else, and that is good enough. No need to rush into things. To quote a wiser woman (or is she a girl, too?) than me,

What they don't understand about birthdays and what they never tell you is that when you're eleven, you're also ten, and nine, and eight, and seven, and six, and five, and four, and three, and two, and one. And when you wake up on your eleventh birthday you expect to feel eleven, but you don't. You open your eyes and everything's just like yesterday, only it's today. And you don't feel eleven at all. You feel like you're still ten. And you are—underneath the year that makes you eleven. ~ Sandra Cisneros, "Eleven"

Maybe I was seeing the 10 year old in the mirror today. I don't know. She was bright-eyed and cheerful, but missing some understanding. How did all those people that were her friends handle someone so young?How did they handle her immaturities? But then again, they were really just kids, too. A bunch of kids stumbling (and skipping) around in an adult world.
And I realized, God must be really laughing at us all, up there in heaven. Laughing at all of His little kids, making mistake after mistake, and often the same one several times in a row. But He is laughing because He loves them - us. And He knows that eventually we'll figure things out, in the long (really, really long - eternal) run. And its okay. We all need to be kids before we can grow up to be real adults (or Gods, hopefully).
So I turned around, leaving the mirror back there, with a small smile on my lips. Back to my little life, with my little worries. I'm sure glad I can be just a girl for now.
And I'm glad I can give Him a good laugh upstairs sometimes.

Socially Prohibited Facebook Statuses

Do you ever go to type a status on facebook, get halfway through, and then realize that:
1)You actually don't want all of your "friends" reading about your personal life,
2)You don't want to sound crazy,
3)Someone that prompted the status might read it and be offended or figure out that it is about them (this is the most common reason for me),
4)This sounds way more emo than I meant (and I am not sitting here asking to be comforted/for compliments),
5)You don't want creepers that you somehow became friends with commenting on it,
6)My mom is friends with me on facebook (sorry mom), or
7)It really isn't that funny to anyone else.

So I decided to make a list of all the statuses that I have wanted to post, but haven't. Feel free to add your own.

• Man, that date was awkward!
• I'm lonely.
• Boys are dumb. Especially *fill in blank* (I have some sense of social rules still. Or maybe more than one name...)
• I think I am going to drop out of school and form a nudist nun colony that lives in cardboard boxes. Seriously.
• He finally asked me out, and now I just have to convince him to do it again. Best date EVER.
• I have forgotten to eat almost all day today. Oops.
• I just failed that test. bummer. :(
• I love Physics!
• Please. If I am annoying, tell me. Being rude isn't really getting you anywhere. If it isn't me, tell me!

 (Wow. Reading back over it, mostly they have to do with dating in some way or another. Lesson learned: most statuses regarding dating are socially prohibited because they make you sound desperate or the guy will read it later).