Saturday, December 22, 2012

There is Sunshine in My Soul Today!

Hello Family,
Life is good here. :) I am very happy! Crazy to hear that Willie is still staying in Joplin! I like having him there, because it means that we are always in the same state, which is fun. Our mission is getting 50 more missionaries (ending with over 300 missionaries. We already are the largest mission in the world as far as numbers of missionaries go, but now we will be easily the size of two missions!) including 30 more sisters!! The work is going forward. :)
I am doing a lot better as far as stress goes this week. Most the time I am doing great--there are just certain days that are not good. In general, I really love my calling as a Visitors' Center Sister Trainer. I feel like I am making a difference, and I enjoy being a leader. I think it is one of my talents. I am much better at leading than I am at executing tiny details like making the bajillion phone calls we need to make every day. haha. I do have a cheerful heart, mom. Life is good in the Inde-hood.
So last Thursday we had an appointment with one of our investigators named Cecelia. We had dinner together in a member's home, and then taught her. The members were awesome and the perfect team ups. They said all of the right things. Also, Cecelia mostly speaks spanish, so they helped translate. (Her husband mostly speaks English, so it bothers him when people speak spanish to her, but he will have to get over that. What a crazy marriage.) We taught the first lesson, even though she has been taught for years, and it went well. It came out that really the reason she hasn't seriously investigated the church is because of her husband, who is a member. He doesn't want her to. We asked him about when he joined the church 5 years ago, and it turns out that he has never read the Book of Mormon, and he never prayed about joining the the church. He just liked the people, and that is the only reason he joined our church rather than someone elses. So it makes him mad whenever we ask his wife to do anything because he doesn't understand the importance. So really, we have to teach one person in english to gain a conversion, and another in spanish to learn the gospel (she already has felt the spirit and knows it is true). Weird that it is the member we need to convert.
The other investigator we have been working with is named Sandy. She is great. Her husband also is a recent convert. They are great, and she knows that she will be baptized eventually, it is just hard to give up her old church that she loves so much. She just doesn't feel in a hurry. She wants to be sure before she joins, but she is expecting that to come--and actually was pretty casual about it.
I am so grateful that we already have two such solid investigators. It is really hard to open an area, actually. It was really hard on Sister Harding for a while to not be teaching anyone and to have only 2-3 hours a day to try to find anyone because we were at the VC the other hours, or studying. Things are so much better. :)
Last week, two of the sisters at the center had their car broken into, and their backpacks stolen with everything in them. They were just grabbing a bite to eat and had parked in front of the main window of the restaurant in broad daylight in a busy parkinglot. But someone busted in the windows of their car and took their backpacks=everything. planners, wallets with social security cards, credit cards, and driver's licenses, scriptures, cameras, journals, everything. Not only did that ruin their weekend as they canceled all cards and couldn't drive or really teach, but the VC was down a car that we all share, so we all had to take no car days. That is really hard when you don't live in your area. Some of us don't even live in our zone. Craziness. THEN, one of the cars got a completely flat tire. So for a few hours until we got the other car back, we only had 2 cars for 8 companionships. Great. Talk about stressful for the people in charge (pointing at self). but everyone was super nice about it, so it all turned out (we did have one sister whose response to me asking them to take a no car day was "It would have been nice to have more advance warning." like it was my fault. My response, "Well, I would have loved to have advance warning, too. I think those sisters whose bags were stolen would have especially liked advance warning." She then realized that she was not the only one that this was hard for. Then she was nice about it.)
Last Friday we had interviews with President Keyes. Because of recent drama at the VC I have prayed for days about what I could do to help these sisters and what I could be doing better. None of the drama is my fault or in any way related to me, but I want to be able to fix it. So we started the interview and he joked around a bit with me about how great I was. He was looking over the questionaire they always have us fill out. On it you can write a question. The question I wrote was "How can I help the sisters at the center? What is my role? How can I help?". He skimmed over the whole page and said, almost casually, "Sister Atkin, you're perfect. Don't worry about it." Then he paused and looked up to see me staring at him intently, tearing up. (for some reason, I always cry when I talk to him).
He said, "Do you want to know what you can do to help these sisters?" I knodded quickly.
"If I tell you what you should do, will you listen with real intent? Meaning, planning to act?"
"Yes!" I replied, with real intent, excited to do whatever he asked me to do.
"Be yourself. Be you. That is what you can do. Just be yourself. That will help the sisters the most."
The rest of the interview continued that way. He told me that I was great and that since there are going to be so many more sisters in the mission, the role of a Sister Trainer was going to be a bigger role in the future.
I am just amazed at the trust President Keyes has in me. It blows me away. I don't entirely understand it. I am not perfect at all, but somehow he trusts me anyway. I realized that perhaps he knows that that is the best way for me personally to learn. If he told me how to be good, I would do it. But if he just shows me that he trusts me and thinks I am wonderful, I thrive. I feel like I have really blossomed under his trust. He gives me room to learn on my own because he knows that I am going to try my very hardest, and perhaps the standard I hold myself to is even higher because it is self imposed instead of external. I truly enjoy being accountable to him. I know I am not perfect, but I feel confident and comfortable telling him about what I have done. I don't feel ashamed.
In a way, President Keyes represents Jesus Christ to me, in the same way that I represent Jesus Christ to those we are teaching. I have felt that as my understanding of my relationship to my mission president has grown, my relationship and understanding of my Savior has grown, too. I am very happy. I know I was supposed to serve here with President Keyes.
On Sunday we had a great day, too. We had an appointment with a 13 year old and her family that we brought a young woman with us to, and it turned out super awkward, but funny. I'm still glad we went. We met with the bishop and he is awesome. He really has confidence in us, too.
Yesterday was Halloween. We just stayed home and planned because we had no one to see, and we weren't allowed to tract (for obvious reasons). So totally noneventful.
Life is good! Transfers are next week, but there is no way I will get moved. It does mean that my P-Day might change, so just be warned. I think it might stay Thursday, but I am sure that it won't be Monday. Beyond that, no gaurantees on when I will be emailing.
I love you all!
Love,
Sister Atkin
 

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